Monday, November 9, 2015

Life in 2015

So I have been working constantly. Basically from August to middle of October with no day off or just part of one off. Being the manager and having no one be willing to help sucks. I started driving for Uber when they started back up in San Antonio in the middle of October, only way to make a little extra as I can't work a scheduled type second job, so uber works well as its on my timeline. The holidays are coming up which makes me happy to an extent. Of course I'm stuck working on thanksgiving while every other person in my company is off. I think it's shitty that since I'm in a Walmart location we are stuck being open when every other one of our stores is closed. So I miss a thanksgiving in the morning and who knows when the dinner at the house will be done since I won't be able to get shit done. All to waste my time and not make money at all. It's bs. I'm so over it all at this point. If I lived in Sa I would say fuck it and just do uber. Who knows what the next few weeks may bring. I may say screw it and walk anyway. The miney I make for the stress and time I work isn't worth it to me at all. 
Love and hugs lovelies xoxo

Thursday, October 25, 2012

What to do?

Alright now, I have a best guy friend that I love and adore. We have known each other since I was 19. Have stayed friends thru his marriages and shit in life. Now he is thinking there may be a future with us. I really don't know what to tell him because I have dated/engaged to his best friend at one point. He told me he knows what went down with that, but I know he only knows what was told by his friend! And I'm sure that was bs, for the fact that he's a cheating liar. Anyways, I dot know what to do about this and I have no one I trust in my rl enough I tell this to.


Saturday, October 20, 2012

Random thoughts

I just went and saw Paranormal Activity 4, wasn't as bad as I expected. Loved the end though, I figure there will be a paranormal activity 5 etc.
I haven't been working at the candle place since August, and not to long ago started working at a former job. It's not something I love but at least it's slightly a paycheck. To top off it all my truck is broken. I have a motorcycle but can't drive it myself yet because I need to take the class for the endorsement.
I need to find a guy that had a job , car etc! I'm sick if being single or at least locally single. Long story lol.
Ok I think I'm done for now :) love you all who read this

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Mary Poppins and more

The last year or two my mother and I have had season tickets to Broadway Across America shows. On the second we saw Mary Poppins. The show was great, I enjoyed it a bunch. I had wanted to get a full size umbrella but didn't have the money for it, so I ended up getting the Christmas ornament. It is so cute and will have the chance to actually be used. Our next show is in December, the Sunday after my birthday. Fiddler on the Roof, I hope its a good show as well. Some of the other shows this year are Les Miz, Billy Elliot, and La Cage Aux Folley. We also got a good deal on great seats for Cats! It's ridiculous that I get so excited for these shows! Oh and Blue Man Group is also in the season but we sold the tickets to a friend. I can't deal with blue people :| lol
As anyone who's read previous posts I'm cleaning out stuff in my life, crappy people, furniture, clothes, anything I can really. I spent Saturday pulling out my bed, headboard, and night stand. After all that we vacuumed the floor and walls so Sunday I could steam clean the carpet. I started that adventure at like 10 am after screwing up breakfast. :( I repeatedly cleaned that section of floor until like 6 pm!! I wasn't able to get my bed back in till almost 8. It was a busy day and I don't really see much difference in the floor. I've decided that I'm just going to check into the cost of redoing the floor so I never have to do it again. ;)
Work has been a bit crazy this week. They decided to take pictures for the new catalogs now. And we are pouring the fragrances that they want for the pictures and setting things as the owners would like it. It's not bad other than we can't put the candles up so less room for glass and stuff to pour the next day. But it's good they will be done hopefully tomorrow night and then Thursday we will be able to put things up and get back to normal. Well at least compared to last week and this one, but Christmas season is on us and we will be busy so no rest. :)
Ok my dears it's time for me to go to bed big hugs and smooches

Thursday, September 29, 2011


Just thought I'd write a little note :) been a relatively good week. Been behind at work but that happens every now and then.
It's been raining a little bit here lately. Monday I think it was, as I was leaving work it started to thunder loudly. When I went outside it was getting very dark. I posted a few pics on Instagram of it. My only thought was please wait to start raining till I got home, as the mustang hydroplanes when it gets wet :/ After I got home we had a nice little rainstorm. It didn't last too long but I ended up falling asleep to thunder and lightning. That made me happy. And right now it is thundering but from the looks of it there isn't going to be any real rain :( I can't wait for the weather to get cooler already, of course that could be due to the fact that my "truck" has no AC, but then again now it doesn't have heat either. Not that I need alot of heat here in Texas. It usually doesn't get cold enough for me to need the heat.
For all the looks of rain it isn't happening yet. Big lightning no thunder nada :( ok I need to go to bed early so I can get up earlier than usual. Night night loves xoxo

Friday, September 23, 2011

Cleaning my life out

I've been clearing out my stuff, going thru it all. I've thrown out almost 10 big bags of trash away. And I still have alot to go thru. Seriously half a closet yet to go thru to see if there is anything in it that I could put in a garage sale. I realized that I have way too much shit!! I am going to put my entertainment center, my headboard, nightstand, desk and possibly 2 dressers in the sale. Thoughout all this I know I need to clean out my life so it's easier when I finally have the ability to move. So if anyone needs any of the stuff I'm trying to sell let me know :)

I've been thinking about taking the weekend of my birthday and taking a little trip, just haven't really decided where I'd like to visit in December. God I wish life was easier for me right now! I need a change, which is why I've thrown so much away. To change things :)

Love love love xo

Sunday, October 3, 2010

My Fundraising Page

My Fundraising Page

please donate for this it is a good cause

Thursday, June 25, 2009


Ok I know it's been forever since I posted last, I am trying to be better but..... Nothing has really been going on with me much, just working and spending time with friends. Well not completely true, my mother and I have been going to the theater in Kerrville over the last year or so. They usually have a show about once a month. I have seen amazing shows there, The Ten Tenors, The 5 Browns, Synergy, 100 Years Of Broadway. They all were so great. One of the reasons I am so willing to do things that are different is I am trying to broaden my tastes in music ect. It has been fun and I truely have enjoyed the shows. We have season tickets for the 09-10 season so there are a few shows I get to go to at least. On June 13th we went up to San Antonio and went to the Majestic Theater to see Wicked, I LOVED it and the building is so beautiful. I have bought another ticket to see it this coming Sat night. I'm going alone this time but it will be worth it. I have great seats for this one, although the seats for the 13th were very good these are better. :)

Work has been pretty good just same old same old. They did fire a guy Tuesday morning and that was a good thing since he was pretty much not worth being there.

Ok I still have a migrane and Farrah Faucett and Michael Jackson have died today so I think that I'm done and going to sleep.


Saturday, February 7, 2009

my feelings

Right now I'm feeling that I might need some time away from the computer for a bit. I dearly appreciate my friends and loved ones who read this, you all mean so much to me. I'll drop in every now and then but I need a little time. If anyone wants to reach me you can email, text comment, or whatever way you like to reach me. I love each of you and thank you for all the kind words and support you give to me every day in your own way.


Friday, February 6, 2009

My friend part 2

Alright, it's been awhile since I've posted and I truly have been meaning to, but things have just been so difficult to write about for me. In my last post I was talking about the situation with my friend in the hospital. Well I said I would give the "full" story at a later time so here ya go. On Friday Jan 9th my best guy friends older brother was in a motorcycle accident. He had gone to cash his paycheck that night and when he was about a mile from his house he crashed his bike. No one truly knows what caused it since he was alone, there was talk of a car pulling out from a road right before the low water crossing, also maybe swerved to miss a deer, who knows. He was unfortunately not wearing his helmet at the time, and was found by a friend. I got a call at 2:30 am on Sat telling me there was a family emergency and to call mom. When I called I found out he was at the hospital in a coma and they weren't sure what was going to happen from there. So I drove the 60 miles to see him and be with the family. He truly didn't look that bad, I mean he was on the ventilator and all but other than that he had a few stitches in his forehead that you could see, and he had to have a shunt type thing in his head to reduce the swelling, fluid in his brain but really other than that he looked OK no broken anything really. I spent some time with him and the family and then late that night drove home. I called everyday to see if there was any change and on that Thursday after the accident I got a call saying that he was going to be taken off the ventilator soon, I assumed from the call that it was going to be that day. There was a family meeting about things that day and one set for the next day at 10 am, as to his mother was waiting for a sitter for the grand babies and her mother has also just been taken to the hospital that morning. So forward to Friday morning, went up there and visited at the morning visitation and then went into the meeting, Dr's said he basically would need lifetime nursing home care and would never know anything as in family friends etc and would need a bunch of surgeries just to be able to live in the home. Now knowing this man for as long as I have I know that he wouldn't want to be in that condition, and the family knew that as well, so they made the decision to let him pass on his own terms and be at peace. After they took him off the machines he was able to survive for almost an hour on his own. That was one of the hardest things I had ever had to go through, watching the people I love say goodbye to him. The one other thing that was so bad was that his brother was not able to be there to say his goodbyes to his brother. And unfortunately was also unable to be at the funeral the following Sat. Gene passed at 1:30 pm Friday the 16th of January. His funeral was very nice and the processional to the grave site was lead by his friends and family on their motorcycles. The whole processional to the grave site was a 16 mile drive or so and there were so many people that it probably took up 3 miles of road. After all of the services were finished everyone went back to his moms house and spent time together etc. And of all the things on that day the hospital in town called and told mom that she needed to get up there and they figured that her mother wouldn't make it till they got there, I mean my God how much in one day can she take, really! I am assuming that since I have not been called and informed of her passing that she is recovering, thank god.

I'm sorry about the downer post but I really needed to just sort of clear my head and talk about it a bit. I have been past the sit of the accident and what I don't understand is why someone has not cleaned the scene a bit better. I mean the family has to drive by the site every time going out or coming home. I don't know if I would be able to see everything that is still there like that, I mean it's disturbing that there is still blood on the road where he was!!!! I was upset driving by there imagine how his wife and kids feel!!!
OK I think that's enough for now, hopefully I will post a little more often and be happier :)