2025-2026

So I know I said that I would be keeping up more regularly but it really didn't happen for the rest of 25. In July 2025 Kerrville had a town/area altering flood. Overnight on July 3rd into the 4th the storm started and in hell IDK less than two hours it had caused devastation and the loss of 121 souls, 27 of them being young girls from Camp Mystic in Hunt. The town of Hunt was pretty much demolished as were the property along Hwy 27 through Hunt to Ingram, the center across from Ingram Dam was fully filled with water. As the water came towards Kerrville it took the trailer park that was on the little island down by Howdys so many thru there lost so much, their property, their lives, their livelihood. and since the storm started at like 1 am everyone was asleep after getting set up for the 4th events they were either hosting or going to. When it got to the park in the middle of town the water had bent or broken so many trees and buildings, but the water was basically to the bottom of the 3 big bridges in town to get across to most things. So many disaster relief companies came to town to help search for the missing start clean up of houses and help those who lost everything but their lives. So the rest of 25 was just sort of the town cleaning up and trying to not be traumatized by rain when in the few times it did rain or there was thunder and lightning, I live far enough up that there was no issue with us, so why when it does storm, like last night with light flooding, I was not able to sleep or not have anxiety? 

So in I think April 2026 I started taking the shot for weight loss. I'm doing a compound semiglutide, started at the lowest dose and currently at .75 mg if I am remembering correctly, this coming week I move up to the next mg which without looking is 1.25 or 50 units per week. I started at not my highest weight thank fuck, but still 208 is not good, I'm not tall enough to be that weight and not look so big. It is currently July 14, 2026 and as of last Saturdays shot I was at 183.6 so I'm losing but it doesn't seem that way to me. 

The area in town to go workout/walk/run whatever was closed from July 4th till the second week or so of October as it took that long to clear the area of debris and all that. The trail going from G street to the state park isn't truly finished as the bridge that was on the trail closest to the park was taken out by the water and still has not be rebuilt and not sure if it will be anytime soon. All the trees that are left down there are so bent over or weak from the flood. We got a light rain storm in like April or May and so many of the trees that were left had branches broken and down from the wind and rain. I told Courtney that the trees around here just don't have enough strength in them to take much more. The trail was closed this am from the rain overnight and it having minor flooding in areas, its bad enough that every time I walk the longer way I see where they had spay painted the sidewalk with NEED CADAVER DOGS THIS WOOD PILE. How in the heck are people supposed to heal from the flood if everyday they see things like that, as if the destroyed landscape doesn't cause trauma anyway. 

The town did its usual 4th of July stuff at the park again this year, while I don't go as it's the last thing that I'd want to do, far too many people just getting hammered and acting a dumbass. Not my vibe at all. While the city asked for ideas for something to do since it was the 1 year anniversary of the flood, they still did the huge part shit that they've done every year for IDK how long. Having a party and everyone being drunk didn't seem like it was the correct thing to do, but what the fuck do I know. It from what I heard from friends that were there was a good time, they had the fireworks and then a drone show, and I guess they had some remembrance thing for those who were lost, All I can keep thinking is even after a year there are at least two people who haven't been found. One of the young girls from the camp, Cile Stuart and a gentleman who I think his name was Robert. Heres the thing I keep thinking, how many people were lost that no one really knew of? The homeless around the area, those folks who took a sudden quick trip and didn't tell anyone where the went or didn't have anyone to tell. Last night was the first real biggish storm since the disaster, so many roads were closed as the low water crossings or trees down. I'm so curious how those directly affected last year how they dealt with the weather from last night.

So this is not really in order of anything but jut sort of throwing my thoughts and shit out of my brain and its wonky so so is the post, lol. Before the flood last year I had started working out/walking whatever as I had wanted to do the San Antonio half marathon, that didn't end up happening for me as the only place I could walk/run was the river trail and it wasn't open for months. Since getting on the shot and losing some weight I've gone almost every day to get at minimum 2.5 miles in but more usual is 3.35 miles a day. This past Monday we were in SA and at a hotel so I walked parts of the Riverwalk and around the Alamo area and got in 2.7 miles and then went to the hotel gym to use their Peloton bike. Ended up doing 4 miles on that, I'd love to have one but they are so expensive and then you have to have a membership that's like $30 a month. I need a sugar daddy that just wants to give me money and not want anything but maybe hanging out and some texting. LOL. I need to go get on the treadmill tonight as I wasn't feeling it this morning but I need to get movement in and close my rings on my watch.

Also the Kerrville Cross Cultures store will be closing August 4th, will still have the Fredricksburg store as it does 4 times the business the Kerr store does. They bought a property outside of Ingram for an office space and a staging space ing the house and then there are like 3 out buildings that we will be using for warehouse space/storage. Wally was also in an accident Memorial Day Sunday and almost died, he spent a week in the hospital and had to have a pacemaker put in, which made it so he couldn't lift anything or even his arms above his shoulders. Thankfully he's doing much better, but having to try to do the things that are needed to be done so the store can close had been put on hold for a while since he could do much and needed to rest to heal. The closing and moving out of the space is going to be interesting for sure. We have about 2 1/2 weeks left, then we clean the space out however we can. Who knows how things are going to go with working when and where after. But everyone is taking some sort of trip after the closing. We are going to Mikeys wedding party in Sep, they are hitting Colorado and Ireland, so at least one store makes that type of thing easier.

Ok I thing I'm done for now. Maybe I'll be better with maybe monthly updates so its not a garbled mess of crazy. We will see.

XOXO

Mandie

Wow its been 6 years!

Alright! It's been about 6/7 years since I've even been on here. So much has happened. Early 2020 (March) a pandemic started, Covid, that caused everything to shut down except grocery stores. Most all businesses closed down for roughly 4/5 months. In that time Donny got out of prison and came home, out in Oct 2019 but was in a halfway house type thing in Houston. Everything basically shut down March 16, 2020, or at least Bath & Body after that I drove up to Houston to pick up Donny and surprise Jimmy since Ashley went up with me. Lockdown was a good time for the first few weeks, then Bbw said we weren't reopening anytime soon so we were getting furloughed so we could get unemployment. We spent a lot of time down in Corpus at the beach since nothing much was open. Then stuff started opening back up, but we all were required to stay 6 ft apart and wear masks, Donny and I only lasted from Jan to right before Halloween. Go figure he's a lying cheating narcissist, that seems to be what I'm drawn to, well was as just the thought of having anything to do with a man makes me want to vomit.2019 2020 Broadway Across America season was cancelled in March so we lost 3 shows that year, a few have since been put in the following seasons. Lots of things reopened at about the 4th of July. Bbw reopened the day after, we had to wear masks, stay distanced, wipe everything that anyone touched down, had stupid barriers at the registers, and only allowed 10 customers in at a time. Like we had someone stand out at the door and let people in in when others left, it was wild. I  didn't last much longer there before I got a job at Hobby Lobby on my days off until I couldn't take Isa the new manager at Bbw. so I was working 7 days a week unless I had a Sunday off at Bbw, in late September Isa caused drama with me because I didn't want to be friends as I don't like her, so I left Bbw and went directly to HL and told the manager that if he needed me I could work whenever as I left the other job. So I started working there as much as they scheduled me. In September they gave me a department to work, so order, put up, etc. Wall Decor then a few by jan 2021 I was the Home Accents dept head. Thats all for 2020 for the most part. Oh Jimmy Graduated in May 2020 with a limited number of people allowed because of the Covid shit. 

2021

I stayed working at HL for 2021. Not much really happened 2021 the masks weren't mandatory anymore I believe. BAA started back up and for the first bit after we had to wear the masks in the theater unless we were taking a drink or something. The season was good, couldn't tell you what the shows were without digging out my playbills and find the dates on the tickets, and lets be very real here I'm lazy and have no desire to even try to look. We started staying at the Gunter Hotel on show nights and working an afternoon shift and whatnot. Ashley Graduated, her graduation ended up being inside Medinas tiny gym because it was raining. We also learned prison didn't teach Donny anything as he started dating a 23/4 yo girl lol.  I honestly can't really remember much more from 2021 so we'll move on lol.

2022

Still at HL in Home Accents. BAA was back to pretty much normal no masks anymore, businesses and everything opened back up minus the places that Covid ruined and they had to close. There isn't anything much open 24 hours anymore> The shows were mostly good a few misses but still worth it. Not many big things happened in 2022 that I remember. 

2023 

WOW the last few years were a lot but nothing really. I got fired from HL because mostly the assistant manager is a bitch and doesn't allow a woman to tell him that an item wasn't wall or home so IDK where it was supposed to go. I took some time as I had a little bit of a buffer from the unemployment money left. so at the end of April I was kind of putting applications out and went back into Cross Cultures to shop, somehow I walked in right after they lost their second employee. So I asked if they'd rehire me, and after checking they hired me. We did the usual season of the BAA and went to Michigan for a bit per usual year. Not much else to say.

2024

Ok so the 24/25 season of the BAA is pretty good so far, as we are still in it as we still have May and June 2025 to go. 2024 was boring and wild in the same sense. Like how on earth did this country REELECT RE like a second time, Donald Trump, further to be known as Velveeta Voldemort. He has done some wild shit in the past term but damn. HOW there was such a better option but yet they put him back in charge. I hate this country I wish I had the money and ability to move anywhere but the usa. I am so scared for what is going to come in the next four years, unless we get lucky and he's impeached or even more that he's put in jail or best option no longer among the living. Simpsons predictions have a he dies in 2025, could this come true like so many of the other weird Simpsons shows that said something happened and it has. I worked most holidays that most places close, but I'd rather work as we don't ever do much so why not make money. Need to make more if an effort to make little posts more often trying to keep up and put stuff in a post instead of keeping things in my brain, lol. 

2025

So far this year has been an absolute shit show. Velveeeta Voldy has put so many wild ass things into this world like tariffs are going to send us into the biggest depression and probably war this country has seen. He's change the Gulf of Mexico to Gulf of America and Im so sorry but I will never call it that. Also Voldy wants to make Canada part of America as well as buy Greenland and the Panama Canal. He and the ketamine King, Elon Musk, have in idk less than 100 days have done so many dumb things, I can not deal with this level of stupid for basically 4 years its so dumb. By the end of this I feel that women will have zero rights to anything, as it is now we don't have rights to our own bodies! Like WTF!!! OK enough of that trash, BAA has two more shows this year, The Wiz and Moulin Rouge. I don't really have the desire to see The Wiz but I have seen some great shows that I never had a thought would be good. The 25/26 season instead of 6 shows and 2 adds there are 8 in the season and 2 adds. Most of the shows coming are supposed to be really good, only one that I have no desire to see but its the Dec show not an add on. There are 2 we've seen at least once before. The shows are Hamiltion, Beauty and the Beast, The Outsiders, A Beautiful Noise, &Juliet, Water For Elephants, Kimberly Akimbo, an Elf. Can we guess what I have no desire for? Thats right Elf. I hate the movie so much, but that could be because I don't think Will Ferrell is fun at all. The adds that we didn't get are Tina and Chicago and if I'm not mistaken  we have seen both of them, I know Tina we have. 

I have been trying to read through my pile of to be read books. So far this year, currently April, I have read 21 physical books and probably 20 audio books. My goal is honesty just to get rid of the piles on my floor, but I had missed reading so its a win-win. I'm not fully feeling my current book but I don't like doing Did Not Finish on books for one but I have done it twice already this year. Ive read enough that I should have a care for the characters or the victim in this book, I don't and barely, want to know what happens, but at this point its close enough to done that I need to just finish it. I should finish this and keep up with it more regularly and get to reading the dang book so I can start a new one already. I only have about 100 pages left so lets get it done today because so over it. 

Oh random as fuck thing to put in this section but honestly just remembered about it. As of today April 17, 2025 I have not had a drink in 836 days which is 27 months almost 28 as it was Jan 2, 2023 would have been the first but mom wanted Wilsons food and before I could say just club soda she'd already poured it lol, so I just started on the second. Honestly I just started it for dry Jan but then just kept going, now I don't care to even drink, but if I wanted to it wouldn't be a thing other than killing how long I've gone already. 

Ok this is long and I feel don't and pretty caught up with things, so see you soon, or maybe in 6 more years we will see:) 

Love.

Updates 2018/Early 2019

Ok so, since the accident in July 2017 I had to fight with the girls insurance. Actually my insurance did that and they gave me $4000 more than what her insurance offered. Went to Michigan in Oct 2017 and bought a car up there. On the drive home got a call from Bath & Body Works to offer me a seasonal position that I had applied for, of course I told her yes as I need the extra money to make car payments now. I ended up working very little as the other job would not make a schedule early enough to be on the schedule at BBW. Mom and I had to go back up to Michigan in April for Dollys memorial service, and of course while we were up there we did family dinner, finally got Mikey and Mike to join in for the dinner, first time almost ever. It was a fun night with everyone there, it sucks that we are so far away and can't do a family dinner more often.

So we are at April 2018 driving home from Michigan again, Leslie from BBW calls and tells me that one of the SLTs/Keyholders are leaving and she wants to know if I'd like to interview for the position, I was like duh YES! So when we got home I interviewed with her and then Stephanie the district manager, Leslie called later the day of my interview with Stephanie to say that they wanted to offer me the position. I took it of course, more money and hours with more days off YES PLEASE. I got scheduled for training and told them at Cross Cultures that i needed the days off or whatever for training, and there was drama. I ended up working a month or so after I gave my two weeks notice, I have zero hard feelings towards them, I just had to go where there was more money to be able to pay bills etc. So as of the current date 2-22-19 I have been with BBW a year and 4 months and April will be my year as SLT. Holidays were fun work wise lots of hours and lots of seasonal help. There were a few that weren't great but a few that I loved and have had a chance to really get to know and like. Now since the holidays and semi annual sale is over we are back to the basic smaller staff, except for floor sets.

Jan 2019 was interesting, started talking to Derek again, since him and his wife are getting divorced. He is now staying at the house again while trying to get back on his feet. He ended up in the hospital for a few days having to get a lung biopsy etc. Weds the 20th it was found out that John Adams the former owner of NEIGHBORS bar had died. Don't know what happened and its not fully my business but its sad that he is no longer here, I feel for his family and close friends, I basically just knew him from the bar and such.

The 2019/2020 season of the Broadway Across America is a bunch of good shows. Dear Evan Hansen, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Cats, Miss Saigon, Come From Away, and Aladdin. So awesome shows coming for next season, and Hamiltion is part of this season so totally bomb season as well. Ok so got to go get ready for some Irish Dance show thing in Boerne tonight. Maybe I'll update more regularly one day.

xoxo
M

Accident

So July 11, 2017 was a craptastic day. Went to the bank and Starbucks, leaving the house for the first time except work, ended up in a car wreck. Dumb little girl pulled out of the car wash and I ended up hitting the back end of her vehicle. Of course it was an SUV and my car was the one that was the losing one. I knew that was going to be the outcome of it after looking at it the very first moment. But the girl was well insured and her company had called by the time i was back from the shop the wrecker too it too. They had a rental car set up for me in under an hour from the wreck happening. Two days later they called and let me know that it was indeed totaled as I knew it would be. The original offer they gave me was way low and I have a friend that works for the company and said to ask for a better amount. So now I have no car, my hours at work are down too like 15 or so a week, which doesn't help me get money enough to get another car decent enough to work Uber.

I'm so tired of being here. Since I have no car I can no longer go and do anything other than go to work. I want to go to San Antonio and go to Six Flags or shop, which I have no money for since I no longer work enough hours to even pay some bills. And since I have no car I can't work anywhere but in this stupid ass town. All there is to do in this shithole is work in fast food and I will never do that shit, I barely eat that crap I could never work there. Ugh fuck this town and this state.


xoxo
M

Things...

So I'm back from my time in Michigan. I've hated every minute of being in Texas. This is not my home and the stupid heat does nothing to make me happy, I hate being overly hot!! I have only left the house to get groceries the day after I got back, and to go to work. I only have been outside to get the mail, go in and get my tea from Starbucks, and walk into the fuckhole that is the mall that my job is in. Legitimately I am the most miserable person right now, I'm either crying, sleeping or at work. I've been trying to watch this season of Big Brother and I can't stand any of the new people and Paul from BB18 sucks just as much. I follow a spoiler page so I knew that the girl Meagan left before the show aired the Sunday show, as well as the chick Christmas breaking her foot or some shit, what the hell do you do in that house to break your foot when there isn't a comp??

I am filled with a desire to do not a damn thing. Been sitting in my chair with Fiyero on my lap for the most part unless I'm at work. No friends and depression is a great thing apparently. I have the next two days off and nothing to do. Tomorrow is the 4th of July and since I have no friends I get to sit at home alone with the cats. I could go up to Fiesta Texas tomorrow, but I've done that shit on the 4th before and i wanted to punch eery soul that was in any realm of me. Everyone is walking way to slow, lines are stupid long for rides, food, etc, so unless I want to go to jail for slapping some dumb ass bitch i best stay away. 

I guess this dumb ass rant is done I'm out.

XOXO

Mandie

Vacation 2017

We left Texas at around 4pm on June 14th, planning to drive straight through the night. I am taking off a bunch of days 15th-26th so can possibly do something. We made it out of Texas actually before midnight, shockingly, drove thru Arkansas and got in to Missouri around 6 am. I always drive as my mothers driving scares the shit out of me. I ended up having to let her drive around 9 as i had been up over 24 hours at that point. She drove until about 30 miles out of Indy, we stopped by the speedway as it is tradition. Went in and looked at the gift shops and wanted to do the track bus tour, but they weren't running them because there was a group using the road track. Going to IMS always makes me so happy, it feels like happiness and home. So i grabbed a Henchfield shirt and we headed on our way. There was 3 hours left in the damn drive and i was so over being in that damn car and driving. Ended up taking a wrong turn and was in some Amish area, getting stuck behind buggys and scooters and bikes. I just wanted to be done.

Got into town and made the first stop at a Biggby coffee to get the first of what will be many pomaberry smoothie. Got to the house finally and unloaded the car and went to bed, I had maybe 2 hours sleep since 8 am on Weds. Friday we were able to surprise my cousins kiddos with showing up at their house on the girls final day of first grade. There are plans for tomorrow(saturday) to go get the boys stitches out and go to a fair thing so they can get Elephant Ears there.

So Saturday consisted of getting the boys stitches out. We went to Urgent Care to get them out, poor kid fought it every step of the way. Trying to get the old bandage off was a struggle of me holding him and my cousin pulling off the tape and having to straighten out his finger the whole time. We had to cover the spot up with our hands so he wouldn't cry the whole time. After that we got everyone loaded into the ride and went to the fair so they could get grease and sugar. When everyone was done we let the kids play on the playground for a bit and then went to the house so Eric could grill and stuff for dinner. Sunday we did a bunch of nothing until it was time to go over for fathers day bbq. Monday I went with another cousin and met her sons girlfriend finally. She is such a sweet girl, we went swimming at her friends house and spent time visiting and junk. Tuesday night was family dinner and then drinks at hide a way. 

Wednesday we went to Three Rivers to meet up with an old friend of my parents at Applebees. I didn't eat there as the food is not good to me. That night I drove up to Saugatuck to meet up with a friend from elementary school who i had not seen since 1988/9. We spent a good while catching up and walking around town. It felt nice to spend the time with her, I miss having people to do things with. Thursday we had dinner with another friend of my parents, then waited for Linds and everyone to get home with their new puppy. We spent some time visiting with the puppy and then I said my goodbyes to the kids and Lindsey. Went to the house and started organizing all my crap to leave in the morning. 

I left Friday at around 9ish, every bit of me and my soul didn't want to leave to come back to Texas. Drove home a different way so I could stop in Springfield, MO to see Kortney for a bit. Visited with her for awhile and then continued the drive. I spent 5 hours listening to the live podcast weekend thing that happens twice a year. They helped me stay awake from about Little Rock to about Waco, I stopped at a gas station and rested for a bit as it was raining kind of hard and I had watched an SUV lose control and hit the center median,spin and then I almost hit them as they were turned sideways in my lane. The rest of the trip back sucked, and I came to the conclusion that the moment I hit Texas my road rage and hatred of people is super amplified and I truly hate it here. Everything about this state makes me cringe. Very few people here make me give a shit about staying, I hate the heat, I hate that when it rains here everyone forgets how to drive and that it floods so quickly. I never wanted to be here and there is nothing keeping me here other than my mother for some unknown reason won't leave this dumb ass state. She doesn't ever leave the house unless its for a dr appt, going to the store, Starbucks, or one day a week spending two hours volunteering. Like what the actual fuck, why won't you leave? No friends, no family, no nothing! Why do we still live in this crap hole town???????

XOXOXO 

Mandie

Life in 2015

So I have been working constantly. Basically from August to middle of October with no day off or just part of one off. Being the manager and having no one be willing to help sucks. I started driving for Uber when they started back up in San Antonio in the middle of October, only way to make a little extra as I can't work a scheduled type second job, so uber works well as its on my timeline. The holidays are coming up which makes me happy to an extent. Of course I'm stuck working on thanksgiving while every other person in my company is off. I think it's shitty that since I'm in a Walmart location we are stuck being open when every other one of our stores is closed. So I miss a thanksgiving in the morning and who knows when the dinner at the house will be done since I won't be able to get shit done. All to waste my time and not make money at all. It's bs. I'm so over it all at this point. If I lived in Sa I would say fuck it and just do uber. Who knows what the next few weeks may bring. I may say screw it and walk anyway. The miney I make for the stress and time I work isn't worth it to me at all. 

Love and hugs lovelies xoxo

What to do?

Alright now, I have a best guy friend that I love and adore. We have known each other since I was 19. Have stayed friends thru his marriages and shit in life. Now he is thinking there may be a future with us. I really don't know what to tell him because I have dated/engaged to his best friend at one point. He told me he knows what went down with that, but I know he only knows what was told by his friend! And I'm sure that was bs, for the fact that he's a cheating liar. Anyways, I dot know what to do about this and I have no one I trust in my rl enough I tell this to.

Xo
Mandie🐾

Random thoughts

I just went and saw Paranormal Activity 4, wasn't as bad as I expected. Loved the end though, I figure there will be a paranormal activity 5 etc.
I haven't been working at the candle place since August, and not to long ago started working at a former job. It's not something I love but at least it's slightly a paycheck. To top off it all my truck is broken. I have a motorcycle but can't drive it myself yet because I need to take the class for the endorsement.
I need to find a guy that had a job , car etc! I'm sick if being single or at least locally single. Long story lol.
Ok I think I'm done for now :) love you all who read this
Xoxoxo

Mary Poppins and more

The last year or two my mother and I have had season tickets to Broadway Across America shows. On the second we saw Mary Poppins. The show was great, I enjoyed it a bunch. I had wanted to get a full size umbrella but didn't have the money for it, so I ended up getting the Christmas ornament. It is so cute and will have the chance to actually be used. Our next show is in December, the Sunday after my birthday. Fiddler on the Roof, I hope its a good show as well. Some of the other shows this year are Les Miz, Billy Elliot, and La Cage Aux Folley. We also got a good deal on great seats for Cats! It's ridiculous that I get so excited for these shows! Oh and Blue Man Group is also in the season but we sold the tickets to a friend. I can't deal with blue people :| lol
As anyone who's read previous posts I'm cleaning out stuff in my life, crappy people, furniture, clothes, anything I can really. I spent Saturday pulling out my bed, headboard, and night stand. After all that we vacuumed the floor and walls so Sunday I could steam clean the carpet. I started that adventure at like 10 am after screwing up breakfast. :( I repeatedly cleaned that section of floor until like 6 pm!! I wasn't able to get my bed back in till almost 8. It was a busy day and I don't really see much difference in the floor. I've decided that I'm just going to check into the cost of redoing the floor so I never have to do it again. ;)
Work has been a bit crazy this week. They decided to take pictures for the new catalogs now. And we are pouring the fragrances that they want for the pictures and setting things as the owners would like it. It's not bad other than we can't put the candles up so less room for glass and stuff to pour the next day. But it's good they will be done hopefully tomorrow night and then Thursday we will be able to put things up and get back to normal. Well at least compared to last week and this one, but Christmas season is on us and we will be busy so no rest. :)
Ok my dears it's time for me to go to bed big hugs and smooches
Xoxo

Randoms

Just thought I'd write a little note :) been a relatively good week. Been behind at work but that happens every now and then.
It's been raining a little bit here lately. Monday I think it was, as I was leaving work it started to thunder loudly. When I went outside it was getting very dark. I posted a few pics on Instagram of it. My only thought was please wait to start raining till I got home, as the mustang hydroplanes when it gets wet :/ After I got home we had a nice little rainstorm. It didn't last too long but I ended up falling asleep to thunder and lightning. That made me happy. And right now it is thundering but from the looks of it there isn't going to be any real rain :( I can't wait for the weather to get cooler already, of course that could be due to the fact that my "truck" has no AC, but then again now it doesn't have heat either. Not that I need alot of heat here in Texas. It usually doesn't get cold enough for me to need the heat.
For all the looks of rain it isn't happening yet. Big lightning no thunder nada :( ok I need to go to bed early so I can get up earlier than usual. Night night loves xoxo

Cleaning my life out

I've been clearing out my stuff, going thru it all. I've thrown out almost 10 big bags of trash away. And I still have alot to go thru. Seriously half a closet yet to go thru to see if there is anything in it that I could put in a garage sale. I realized that I have way too much shit!! I am going to put my entertainment center, my headboard, nightstand, desk and possibly 2 dressers in the sale. Thoughout all this I know I need to clean out my life so it's easier when I finally have the ability to move. So if anyone needs any of the stuff I'm trying to sell let me know :)

I've been thinking about taking the weekend of my birthday and taking a little trip, just haven't really decided where I'd like to visit in December. God I wish life was easier for me right now! I need a change, which is why I've thrown so much away. To change things :)

Love love love xo

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Updates

Ok I know it's been forever since I posted last, I am trying to be better but..... Nothing has really been going on with me much, just working and spending time with friends. Well not completely true, my mother and I have been going to the theater in Kerrville over the last year or so. They usually have a show about once a month. I have seen amazing shows there, The Ten Tenors, The 5 Browns, Synergy, 100 Years Of Broadway. They all were so great. One of the reasons I am so willing to do things that are different is I am trying to broaden my tastes in music ect. It has been fun and I truely have enjoyed the shows. We have season tickets for the 09-10 season so there are a few shows I get to go to at least. On June 13th we went up to San Antonio and went to the Majestic Theater to see Wicked, I LOVED it and the building is so beautiful. I have bought another ticket to see it this coming Sat night. I'm going alone this time but it will be worth it. I have great seats for this one, although the seats for the 13th were very good these are better. :)

Work has been pretty good just same old same old. They did fire a guy Tuesday morning and that was a good thing since he was pretty much not worth being there.

Ok I still have a migrane and Farrah Faucett and Michael Jackson have died today so I think that I'm done and going to sleep.

XOXO

my feelings

Right now I'm feeling that I might need some time away from the computer for a bit. I dearly appreciate my friends and loved ones who read this, you all mean so much to me. I'll drop in every now and then but I need a little time. If anyone wants to reach me you can email, text comment, or whatever way you like to reach me. I love each of you and thank you for all the kind words and support you give to me every day in your own way.

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My friend part 2

Alright, it's been awhile since I've posted and I truly have been meaning to, but things have just been so difficult to write about for me. In my last post I was talking about the situation with my friend in the hospital. Well I said I would give the "full" story at a later time so here ya go. On Friday Jan 9th my best guy friends older brother was in a motorcycle accident. He had gone to cash his paycheck that night and when he was about a mile from his house he crashed his bike. No one truly knows what caused it since he was alone, there was talk of a car pulling out from a road right before the low water crossing, also maybe swerved to miss a deer, who knows. He was unfortunately not wearing his helmet at the time, and was found by a friend. I got a call at 2:30 am on Sat telling me there was a family emergency and to call mom. When I called I found out he was at the hospital in a coma and they weren't sure what was going to happen from there. So I drove the 60 miles to see him and be with the family. He truly didn't look that bad, I mean he was on the ventilator and all but other than that he had a few stitches in his forehead that you could see, and he had to have a shunt type thing in his head to reduce the swelling, fluid in his brain but really other than that he looked OK no broken anything really. I spent some time with him and the family and then late that night drove home. I called everyday to see if there was any change and on that Thursday after the accident I got a call saying that he was going to be taken off the ventilator soon, I assumed from the call that it was going to be that day. There was a family meeting about things that day and one set for the next day at 10 am, as to his mother was waiting for a sitter for the grand babies and her mother has also just been taken to the hospital that morning. So forward to Friday morning, went up there and visited at the morning visitation and then went into the meeting, Dr's said he basically would need lifetime nursing home care and would never know anything as in family friends etc and would need a bunch of surgeries just to be able to live in the home. Now knowing this man for as long as I have I know that he wouldn't want to be in that condition, and the family knew that as well, so they made the decision to let him pass on his own terms and be at peace. After they took him off the machines he was able to survive for almost an hour on his own. That was one of the hardest things I had ever had to go through, watching the people I love say goodbye to him. The one other thing that was so bad was that his brother was not able to be there to say his goodbyes to his brother. And unfortunately was also unable to be at the funeral the following Sat. Gene passed at 1:30 pm Friday the 16th of January. His funeral was very nice and the processional to the grave site was lead by his friends and family on their motorcycles. The whole processional to the grave site was a 16 mile drive or so and there were so many people that it probably took up 3 miles of road. After all of the services were finished everyone went back to his moms house and spent time together etc. And of all the things on that day the hospital in town called and told mom that she needed to get up there and they figured that her mother wouldn't make it till they got there, I mean my God how much in one day can she take, really! I am assuming that since I have not been called and informed of her passing that she is recovering, thank god.

I'm sorry about the downer post but I really needed to just sort of clear my head and talk about it a bit. I have been past the sit of the accident and what I don't understand is why someone has not cleaned the scene a bit better. I mean the family has to drive by the site every time going out or coming home. I don't know if I would be able to see everything that is still there like that, I mean it's disturbing that there is still blood on the road where he was!!!! I was upset driving by there imagine how his wife and kids feel!!!
OK I think that's enough for now, hopefully I will post a little more often and be happier :)


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My Friend

OK I have just gotten back from the Hospital, after being there since around 11 A.M. Right now all I'm going to do is just write a quick little post for now. I will fully explain what happened later. Things for Gene are bad and there is going to be another meeting tomorrow morning about when exactly they will turn off the ventilator. They are trying to see if all of the family can at least say their goodbyes in person, so I don't know when it will happen for sure. I truly hope that his one brother that hasn't been able to come see him will be allowed to. I wish that seeing all the family wasn't under these conditions for sure. Thank you to everyone of you for caring about me and your prayers and thoughts I love you all. I must get some sleep now my eyes hurt from crying and being so tired.

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Video # 3

OK my dears, I have been lazy the last few days and haven't posted the video of the theme park I took on the first. Here it is though. The kids in the video are my nieces and nephew.
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More Christmas lights Video # 2

Alright I finally got the flip camera and just trying stuff out so here's the lights that were on my house for the holidays. If I get motivated today there might be video of the Six Flags Holiday on the Park later not sure if I will put it out or not though
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Video #1

OK yay blogger finally decided to let me upload a video on here. Its a silly video but all I was doing was checking out my Christmas pressie and seeing how the flip works and all, enjoy the video of my fatty cat.

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