Friday, February 22, 2019

Updates 2018/Early 2019

Ok so, since the accident in July 2017 I had to fight with the girls insurance. Actually my insurance did that and they gave me $4000 more than what her insurance offered. Went to Michigan in Oct 2017 and bought a car up there. On the drive home got a call from Bath & Body Works to offer me a seasonal position that I had applied for, of course I told her yes as I need the extra money to make car payments now. I ended up working very little as the other job would not make a schedule early enough to be on the schedule at BBW. Mom and I had to go back up to Michigan in April for Dollys memorial service, and of course while we were up there we did family dinner, finally got Mikey and Mike to join in for the dinner, first time almost ever. It was a fun night with everyone there, it sucks that we are so far away and can't do a family dinner more often.

So we are at April 2018 driving home from Michigan again, Leslie from BBW calls and tells me that one of the SLTs/Keyholders are leaving and she wants to know if I'd like to interview for the position, I was like duh YES! So when we got home I interviewed with her and then Stephanie the district manager, Leslie called later the day of my interview with Stephanie to say that they wanted to offer me the position. I took it of course, more money and hours with more days off YES PLEASE. I got scheduled for training and told them at Cross Cultures that i needed the days off or whatever for training, and there was drama. I ended up working a month or so after I gave my two weeks notice, I have zero hard feelings towards them, I just had to go where there was more money to be able to pay bills etc. So as of the current date 2-22-19 I have been with BBW a year and 4 months and April will be my year as SLT. Holidays were fun work wise lots of hours and lots of seasonal help. There were a few that weren't great but a few that I loved and have had a chance to really get to know and like. Now since the holidays and semi annual sale is over we are back to the basic smaller staff, except for floor sets.

Jan 2019 was interesting, started talking to Derek again, since him and his wife are getting divorced. He is now staying at the house again while trying to get back on his feet. He ended up in the hospital for a few days having to get a lung biopsy etc. Weds the 20th it was found out that John Adams the former owner of NEIGHBORS bar had died. Don't know what happened and its not fully my business but its sad that he is no longer here, I feel for his family and close friends, I basically just knew him from the bar and such.

The 2019/2020 season of the Broadway Across America is a bunch of good shows. Dear Evan Hansen, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Cats, Miss Saigon, Come From Away, and Aladdin. So awesome shows coming for next season, and Hamiltion is part of this season so totally bomb season as well. Ok so got to go get ready for some Irish Dance show thing in Boerne tonight. Maybe I'll update more regularly one day.


Tuesday, July 25, 2017


So July 11, 2017 was a craptastic day. Went to the bank and Starbucks, leaving the house for the first time except work, ended up in a car wreck. Dumb little girl pulled out of the car wash and I ended up hitting the back end of her vehicle. Of course it was an SUV and my car was the one that was the losing one. I knew that was going to be the outcome of it after looking at it the very first moment. But the girl was well insured and her company had called by the time i was back from the shop the wrecker too it too. They had a rental car set up for me in under an hour from the wreck happening. Two days later they called and let me know that it was indeed totaled as I knew it would be. The original offer they gave me was way low and I have a friend that works for the company and said to ask for a better amount. So now I have no car, my hours at work are down too like 15 or so a week, which doesn't help me get money enough to get another car decent enough to work Uber.

I'm so tired of being here. Since I have no car I can no longer go and do anything other than go to work. I want to go to San Antonio and go to Six Flags or shop, which I have no money for since I no longer work enough hours to even pay some bills. And since I have no car I can't work anywhere but in this stupid ass town. All there is to do in this shithole is work in fast food and I will never do that shit, I barely eat that crap I could never work there. Ugh fuck this town and this state.


Monday, July 3, 2017


So I'm back from my time in Michigan. I've hated every minute of being in Texas. This is not my home and the stupid heat does nothing to make me happy, I hate being overly hot!! I have only left the house to get groceries the day after I got back, and to go to work. I only have been outside to get the mail, go in and get my tea from Starbucks, and walk into the fuckhole that is the mall that my job is in. Legitimately I am the most miserable person right now, I'm either crying, sleeping or at work. I've been trying to watch this season of Big Brother and I can't stand any of the new people and Paul from BB18 sucks just as much. I follow a spoiler page so I knew that the girl Meagan left before the show aired the Sunday show, as well as the chick Christmas breaking her foot or some shit, what the hell do you do in that house to break your foot when there isn't a comp??
I am filled with a desire to do not a damn thing. Been sitting in my chair with Fiyero on my lap for the most part unless I'm at work. No friends and depression is a great thing apparently. I have the next two days off and nothing to do. Tomorrow is the 4th of July and since I have no friends I get to sit at home alone with the cats. I could go up to Fiesta Texas tomorrow, but I've done that shit on the 4th before and i wanted to punch eery soul that was in any realm of me. Everyone is walking way to slow, lines are stupid long for rides, food, etc, so unless I want to go to jail for slapping some dumb ass bitch i best stay away. 

I guess this dumb ass rant is done I'm out.


Saturday, June 24, 2017

Vacation 2017

We left Texas at around 4pm on June 14th, planning to drive straight through the night. I am taking off a bunch of days 15th-26th so can possibly do something. We made it out of Texas actually before midnight, shockingly, drove thru Arkansas and got in to Missouri around 6 am. I always drive as my mothers driving scares the shit out of me. I ended up having to let her drive around 9 as i had been up over 24 hours at that point. She drove until about 30 miles out of Indy, we stopped by the speedway as it is tradition. Went in and looked at the gift shops and wanted to do the track bus tour, but they weren't running them because there was a group using the road track. Going to IMS always makes me so happy, it feels like happiness and home. So i grabbed a Henchfield shirt and we headed on our way. There was 3 hours left in the damn drive and i was so over being in that damn car and driving. Ended up taking a wrong turn and was in some Amish area, getting stuck behind buggys and scooters and bikes. I just wanted to be done.
Got into town and made the first stop at a Biggby coffee to get the first of what will be many pomaberry smoothie. Got to the house finally and unloaded the car and went to bed, I had maybe 2 hours sleep since 8 am on Weds. Friday we were able to surprise my cousins kiddos with showing up at their house on the girls final day of first grade. There are plans for tomorrow(saturday) to go get the boys stitches out and go to a fair thing so they can get Elephant Ears there.
So Saturday consisted of getting the boys stitches out. We went to Urgent Care to get them out, poor kid fought it every step of the way. Trying to get the old bandage off was a struggle of me holding him and my cousin pulling off the tape and having to straighten out his finger the whole time. We had to cover the spot up with our hands so he wouldn't cry the whole time. After that we got everyone loaded into the ride and went to the fair so they could get grease and sugar. When everyone was done we let the kids play on the playground for a bit and then went to the house so Eric could grill and stuff for dinner. Sunday we did a bunch of nothing until it was time to go over for fathers day bbq. Monday I went with another cousin and met her sons girlfriend finally. She is such a sweet girl, we went swimming at her friends house and spent time visiting and junk. Tuesday night was family dinner and then drinks at hide a way. 
Wednesday we went to Three Rivers to meet up with an old friend of my parents at Applebees. I didn't eat there as the food is not good to me. That night I drove up to Saugatuck to meet up with a friend from elementary school who i had not seen since 1988/9. We spent a good while catching up and walking around town. It felt nice to spend the time with her, I miss having people to do things with. Thursday we had dinner with another friend of my parents, then waited for Linds and everyone to get home with their new puppy. We spent some time visiting with the puppy and then I said my goodbyes to the kids and Lindsey. Went to the house and started organizing all my crap to leave in the morning. 
I left Friday at around 9ish, every bit of me and my soul didn't want to leave to come back to Texas. Drove home a different way so I could stop in Springfield, MO to see Kortney for a bit. Visited with her for awhile and then continued the drive. I spent 5 hours listening to the live podcast weekend thing that happens twice a year. They helped me stay awake from about Little Rock to about Waco, I stopped at a gas station and rested for a bit as it was raining kind of hard and I had watched an SUV lose control and hit the center median,spin and then I almost hit them as they were turned sideways in my lane. The rest of the trip back sucked, and I came to the conclusion that the moment I hit Texas my road rage and hatred of people is super amplified and I truly hate it here. Everything about this state makes me cringe. Very few people here make me give a shit about staying, I hate the heat, I hate that when it rains here everyone forgets how to drive and that it floods so quickly. I never wanted to be here and there is nothing keeping me here other than my mother for some unknown reason won't leave this dumb ass state. She doesn't ever leave the house unless its for a dr appt, going to the store, Starbucks, or one day a week spending two hours volunteering. Like what the actual fuck, why won't you leave? No friends, no family, no nothing! Why do we still live in this crap hole town???????



Monday, November 9, 2015

Life in 2015

So I have been working constantly. Basically from August to middle of October with no day off or just part of one off. Being the manager and having no one be willing to help sucks. I started driving for Uber when they started back up in San Antonio in the middle of October, only way to make a little extra as I can't work a scheduled type second job, so uber works well as its on my timeline. The holidays are coming up which makes me happy to an extent. Of course I'm stuck working on thanksgiving while every other person in my company is off. I think it's shitty that since I'm in a Walmart location we are stuck being open when every other one of our stores is closed. So I miss a thanksgiving in the morning and who knows when the dinner at the house will be done since I won't be able to get shit done. All to waste my time and not make money at all. It's bs. I'm so over it all at this point. If I lived in Sa I would say fuck it and just do uber. Who knows what the next few weeks may bring. I may say screw it and walk anyway. The miney I make for the stress and time I work isn't worth it to me at all. 
Love and hugs lovelies xoxo

Thursday, October 25, 2012

What to do?

Alright now, I have a best guy friend that I love and adore. We have known each other since I was 19. Have stayed friends thru his marriages and shit in life. Now he is thinking there may be a future with us. I really don't know what to tell him because I have dated/engaged to his best friend at one point. He told me he knows what went down with that, but I know he only knows what was told by his friend! And I'm sure that was bs, for the fact that he's a cheating liar. Anyways, I dot know what to do about this and I have no one I trust in my rl enough I tell this to.


Saturday, October 20, 2012

Random thoughts

I just went and saw Paranormal Activity 4, wasn't as bad as I expected. Loved the end though, I figure there will be a paranormal activity 5 etc.
I haven't been working at the candle place since August, and not to long ago started working at a former job. It's not something I love but at least it's slightly a paycheck. To top off it all my truck is broken. I have a motorcycle but can't drive it myself yet because I need to take the class for the endorsement.
I need to find a guy that had a job , car etc! I'm sick if being single or at least locally single. Long story lol.
Ok I think I'm done for now :) love you all who read this

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Mary Poppins and more

The last year or two my mother and I have had season tickets to Broadway Across America shows. On the second we saw Mary Poppins. The show was great, I enjoyed it a bunch. I had wanted to get a full size umbrella but didn't have the money for it, so I ended up getting the Christmas ornament. It is so cute and will have the chance to actually be used. Our next show is in December, the Sunday after my birthday. Fiddler on the Roof, I hope its a good show as well. Some of the other shows this year are Les Miz, Billy Elliot, and La Cage Aux Folley. We also got a good deal on great seats for Cats! It's ridiculous that I get so excited for these shows! Oh and Blue Man Group is also in the season but we sold the tickets to a friend. I can't deal with blue people :| lol
As anyone who's read previous posts I'm cleaning out stuff in my life, crappy people, furniture, clothes, anything I can really. I spent Saturday pulling out my bed, headboard, and night stand. After all that we vacuumed the floor and walls so Sunday I could steam clean the carpet. I started that adventure at like 10 am after screwing up breakfast. :( I repeatedly cleaned that section of floor until like 6 pm!! I wasn't able to get my bed back in till almost 8. It was a busy day and I don't really see much difference in the floor. I've decided that I'm just going to check into the cost of redoing the floor so I never have to do it again. ;)
Work has been a bit crazy this week. They decided to take pictures for the new catalogs now. And we are pouring the fragrances that they want for the pictures and setting things as the owners would like it. It's not bad other than we can't put the candles up so less room for glass and stuff to pour the next day. But it's good they will be done hopefully tomorrow night and then Thursday we will be able to put things up and get back to normal. Well at least compared to last week and this one, but Christmas season is on us and we will be busy so no rest. :)
Ok my dears it's time for me to go to bed big hugs and smooches

Thursday, September 29, 2011


Just thought I'd write a little note :) been a relatively good week. Been behind at work but that happens every now and then.
It's been raining a little bit here lately. Monday I think it was, as I was leaving work it started to thunder loudly. When I went outside it was getting very dark. I posted a few pics on Instagram of it. My only thought was please wait to start raining till I got home, as the mustang hydroplanes when it gets wet :/ After I got home we had a nice little rainstorm. It didn't last too long but I ended up falling asleep to thunder and lightning. That made me happy. And right now it is thundering but from the looks of it there isn't going to be any real rain :( I can't wait for the weather to get cooler already, of course that could be due to the fact that my "truck" has no AC, but then again now it doesn't have heat either. Not that I need alot of heat here in Texas. It usually doesn't get cold enough for me to need the heat.
For all the looks of rain it isn't happening yet. Big lightning no thunder nada :( ok I need to go to bed early so I can get up earlier than usual. Night night loves xoxo

Friday, September 23, 2011

Cleaning my life out

I've been clearing out my stuff, going thru it all. I've thrown out almost 10 big bags of trash away. And I still have alot to go thru. Seriously half a closet yet to go thru to see if there is anything in it that I could put in a garage sale. I realized that I have way too much shit!! I am going to put my entertainment center, my headboard, nightstand, desk and possibly 2 dressers in the sale. Thoughout all this I know I need to clean out my life so it's easier when I finally have the ability to move. So if anyone needs any of the stuff I'm trying to sell let me know :)

I've been thinking about taking the weekend of my birthday and taking a little trip, just haven't really decided where I'd like to visit in December. God I wish life was easier for me right now! I need a change, which is why I've thrown so much away. To change things :)

Love love love xo